it’s because, despite what you might think, you’re less ruled by logic than you say you are, you should let yourself be ruled by illogicality a bit more. if you’re not open to the devastating, heartbreaking lows you’re never going to feel the incomparable highs and your experience will be forever trapped under the weight of the fear of your own vulnerability. and it will probably hurt like hell and you probably don’t think you can do that again. but it will also be better than you ever knew it could be. ants live in a world where they are so small they cannot register the existence of humans, they cannot even imagine the possibility of something that big. but i am not an ant, and i know that humans do indeed exist. i know that whatever i have now isn’t the most that there’s ever going to be, and it’s past the periphery of my imagination but you have to know that there is more out there than what you already know, there is more and it’s waiting for you. and i am like you, i like the black and the white, it’s very easy that way, with defined boundaries and the binary of right and wrong. you love the world of the right and the wrong, as do i, i love the right. betwixt the black and white there is grey, beyond them, there is colour. and colour in a monochromatic world doesn’t seem like it belongs because it doesn’t adhere to the binary, it is neither wrong nor right, it just is. and it’s totally illogical. there is absolutely no sense to it. but there doesn’t have to be. i will cry for no reason, i will love you for a million i will never be able to transcribe. sometimes instead of thinking it’s okay to just feel. and this, this horrible notion of love is so idealised and romanticised and it will break you but it will also build you back up better than you ever were. and maybe it’s just as simple as you don’t think it’s worth the effort, that the risk is far greater than the reward and logically that is probably true, if you run the numbers they will not work out in your favour. it is entirely illogical for anyone to ever put themselves in that position. but that is not the point. the point is that despite the odds that work against us, we do it anyway because maybe, just maybe, we will achieve something great, something past the periphery of the wildest imagination in vivid technicolour.
this isn’t all the love you’ll ever get
